Beginning of Parenthood

On November 15, 2012 I had my 38 week doctors appointment to check on how our little girl was doing! Not only was I in a lot of pain but I was ready to not be pregnant anymore! After sometime at the doctor we found out that she had turned from being head down & ready to come out to breach! Change your mind did you little girl?! They gave me two options which were they could try to turn her back by pushing on my belly or scheduling a c-section. Colton & I talked about it and weighed our options and did not feel 100% comfortable with them trying to turn her so we scheduled a c-section for November 28, 2012.

The time came & I was not to eat after midnight and had to be checked in at the hospital at 9:00 am. I remember on the way to the hospital the ONLY thing I could think of "what if she doesn't like me?" Not even like what if I die in surgery or about the fact that I was going to be super naked in front of a bunch of doctors while they cut me open. Just "what if she doesn't like me?" We got to the hospital a little bit early and got checked in. We spent FOREVER waiting for them to prep me for surgery. Before I knew it, it was 12:00 pm! I was so hungry & my early labor pains were feeling pretty terrible. At this point, I could feel the momzilla in me. I went down to the desk and asked how much longer it would be & their response was about another hour. ANOTHER HOUR?!! Oh man I was pissed. Finally, about 1:30 or so they took me back to get prepped. Colton got into his scrubs & I got into my gown. I was wheeled down to the operating room and colton wasnt allowed in just yet. They told me after I got my spinal & I was numb he would be allowed in. Unfornately, I had trouble getting numb. The spinal was not working & they had to try a second time. It was taking forever & I was about ready to punch the doctor that was pinching my legs and stomach asking if I was numb yet. After about an hour they decided to give me an epidural to numb me up. They laid me back down and the only thing I could think of was where is Colton? I kept asking for him but they said not too much longer. Once Colton was finally allowed to come in I was fighting going to sleep. I HAD to stay awake. I was thinking "Lets get this over with! Can you start already?!" when they told Colton to look over the sheet to see our daughter being pulled out! WHAT!? When did you start?! Colton said watching her come out was the most amazing thing he has ever seen in his life & he honestly had no words to describe it.

On Novemeber 28, 2012 at 3:52 pm I gave birth to the most beautiful little girl named Sophie Elizabeth Russell weighing in at 5 lbs 15.8 oz & 18 inches long. The first time I heard her cry it brought tears to my eyes.  I never knew I could love someone so much that I had JUST met!

Parenthood is such a beautiful thing. Yes, there are sometimes where I just want to pull my hair out but everytime I see that cute little toothless grin it makes it all worth it.

Sophie Elizabeth Russell